So today's the day. The premiere of Lost Season 6. A year ago, I thought Lost was the stupidest show in the world. I thought every episode was thrown together and nothing tied into one another and the writers were crazy and changed at commercial breaks. I was NOT a fan. I actually made fun of fans. But here I am, having purchased all 5 seasons, watched through all of them, spent lunches speculating over rumor boards and reading episode reviews, staying up into the wee hours of the morning playing catchup, or rewatching episodes that may be important. I hate to say it but...

I am

a Lostie.

Ugh, even typing those words humbles me. I desperately wanted to start watching this show and be able to say, see I'm right! This is stupid. But alas, that's not how it played out.

What I was so sure of, what I was so set on, was false.
And honestly, it was keeping me from enjoying something truly great.

Now if you've never watched Lost, you won't understand how great this show really is. The way all of the story lines intertwine and the foreshadowing they use 3 seasons in advance is incredible! It's truly a literary work of genius not to even mention the videography. I am truly impressed by the work that Damon Lindelof and Carlton Cuse, and J.J. Abrams (sort of) put into this project. I am truly excited about tonight's beginning of the final season, to finally have questions answered. GAH! I can't even contain myself typing this! I could seriously go on for pages about the greatness of the show and the cultural and religious references and the subtle things that most people don't even catch on about. But, I feel like all of these feelings towards this convey something deeper.

How often do we get our hearts so set on something, i.e. Lost being completely terrible, that we almost completely miss the beauty of what's going on that we have shut off. I feel like this happens all the time in the Christian life. We get so SET in our doctrines that we can't see through them. We firmly believe that this is this and that is that and that's good and that's bad and I can't do this and I have to do that, that we simply miss it.

we miss the point.

We are going to be wrong. Our theology and understanding is going to grow and our capacity for understanding things that we currently don't understand or currently don't necessarily agree with is going to change. If you would've told me that the cessasionist view point was not true and that the Holy Spirit still works in remarkable ways, sometimes in absolutely miraculous ways, I would've laughed at you. But through various trials and experiences and events, I cannot deny His role in our lives. I don't fully understand it but, I'm humble in knowing that my understanding will increase, my wisdom in regards to His role in my life and in society will grow. There's a very fine line. We need to know what we know and hold our doctrine close...

but we need to be able to admit that we may be wrong.

otherwise, maybe it's not just the people around us that are trying to get something through to us.

maybe it's God.

maybe we're refusing to allow Him to show us something to help us to grow.

we need to not do that. we need to live a Matthew 19 life. Jesus tells us to love the Lord our God with all our heart, soul, and mind, and to do the same for our neighbors. In those two commands the law is summarized. Does doctrine matter? I'm sure that it does, do any single one of us have it right? surely not. so we need to not act like we do. we must approach our doctrine from a humble perspective believing it but also believing that it could change that we could be wrong. Paul says in 1 Corinthains 13 that love is over all things. John tells us in 1 John that God IS love...

maybe instead of arguing, we should start bringing God into our relationships.

God is love.